Billets comportant le tag poetry
Billets comportant le tag poetry
it was more than
simply a time
simply a subject
simply a topic to
broaden my mind
and torment my being.
it embodied
the fear
piercing through
icy tendrils lapping
at my heart.
it was more than that.
so i burned.
icy tendrils
to melt and blaze
to fiery horizon.
until all that remains
is the faint smell of smoke.
i sat and watched the field
was burning
burning
the ashes swirling
flames licking
as i sat
with you
and we watched the field
was burning
burning.
like a wisp
flitting
a candle
flickering in the
periphery.
the moth
beating against
the flame
of my mind.
back
here
you.
though you
never
truly
left.
This poem reminds me of having an eating disorder and the complex process of recovery.I
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk
I fall in.
I am lost … I am helpless.
It isn’t my fault.
It takes me forever to find a way out.II
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don’t see it.
I fall in again.
I can’t believe I am in the same place
but, it isn’t my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.III
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in … it’s a habit.
my eyes are open
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.IV
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.V
I walk down another street.
This would appear on my dash tonight.

My tattoo.
floating alone on that raft
the rag-tag vessel
held together by the tendrils
seeming to disintegrate with
each passing moment of this unbearable
status quo
alone on that raft
sea water drowning
all the chances for escape
for safety
for a future
resigned.
but you gave me hope
hope that these ropes
may hold together the pieces
of the very thing which keeps me afloat
hope that in time
i may understand why you offered me
hope
in the first place.
sometimes it feels
like things are floating out
drifting away whilst still
pressing in and suffocating
the breath that catches
and doesn’t come easily
into the lungs which curse
and retch the feeling
of the vigor of life
that doesn’t course through
my veins
but lingers
so heavily as my eyelids
flutter with exhaustion
moments after waking
from the nightmare
that is all too real
tangible
just on the edges of my fingertips
and the horizon just out of my reach.
Derrick C. Brown - “Instead of Killing Yourself”
(Source : caattnip, via hulksmashes)
my body feels so different
trembling against the cold
which presses in so precisely.
gradually taking me
the cold fingertips
the fighting tendrils of warmth
sucked out from the root.
it’s not at all like
those dog days of summer.
the heavy air
balmy and dense around my head
my body spilling out
into the wet.

Benedict Cumberbatch — Ode to a Nightingale by John Keats
My heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains
My sense, as though of hemlock I had drunk,
Or emptied some dull opiate to the drains
One minute past, and Lethe-wards had sunk:
‘Tis not through envy of thy happy lot,
But being too happy in thine happiness, -
That thou, light-winged Dryad of the trees,
In some melodious plot
Of beechen green and shadows numberless,
Singest of summer in full-throated ease.O, for a draught of vintage! that hath been
Cool’d a long age in the deep-delved earth,
Tasting of Flora and the country green,
Dance, and Provençal song, and sunburnt mirth!
O for a beaker full of the warm South,
Full of the true, the blushful Hippocrene,
With beaded bubbles winking at the brim,
And purple-stained mouth;
That I might drink, and leave the world unseen,
And with thee fade away into the forest dim:Fade far away, dissolve, and quite forget
What thou among the leaves hast never known,
The weariness, the fever, and the fret
Here, where men sit and hear each other groan;
Where palsy shakes a few, sad, last gray hairs,
Where youth grows pale, and spectre-thin, and dies;
Where but to think is to be full of sorrow
And leaden-eyed despairs,
Where Beauty cannot keep her lustrous eyes,
Or new Love pine at them beyond to-morrow.Away! away! for I will fly to thee,
Not charioted by Bacchus and his pards,
But on the viewless wings of Poesy,
Though the dull brain perplexes and retards:
Already with thee! tender is the night,
And haply the Queen-Moon is on her throne,
Cluster’d around by all her starry Fays;
But here there is no light,
Save what from heaven is with the breezes blown
Through verdurous glooms and winding mossy ways.I cannot see what flowers are at my feet,
Nor what soft incense hangs upon the boughs,
But, in embalmed darkness, guess each sweet
Wherewith the seasonable month endows
The grass, the thicket, and the fruit-tree wild;
White hawthorn, and the pastoral eglantine;
Fast fading violets cover’d up in leaves;
And mid-May’s eldest child,
The coming musk-rose, full of dewy wine,
The murmurous haunt of flies on summer eves.Darkling I listen; and, for many a time
I have been half in love with easeful Death,
Call’d him soft names in many a mused rhyme,
To take into the air my quiet breath;
Now more than ever seems it rich to die,
To cease upon the midnight with no pain,
While thou art pouring forth thy soul abroad
In such an ecstasy!
Still wouldst thou sing, and I have ears in vain -
To thy high requiem become a sod.Thou wast not born for death, immortal Bird!
No hungry generations tread thee down;
The voice I hear this passing night was heard
In ancient days by emperor and clown:
Perhaps the self-same song that found a path
Through the sad heart of Ruth, when, sick for home,
She stood in tears amid the alien corn;
The same that oft-times hath
Charm’d magic casements, opening on the foam
Of perilous seas, in faery lands forlorn.Forlorn! the very word is like a bell
To toll me back from thee to my sole self!
Adieu! the fancy cannot cheat so well
As she is fam’d to do, deceiving elf.
Adieu! adieu! thy plaintive anthem fades
Past the near meadows, over the still stream,
Up the hill-side; and now ‘tis buried deep
In the next valley-glades:
Was it a vision, or a waking dream?
Fled is that music: - Do I wake or sleep?(image)
unf. listening again.
Benedict Cumberbatch reads “Ode to a Nightingale” by John Keats.
UMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM I REALLY CAN’T RIGHT NOW WITH THIS
unf. his voice is just….like rose petals brushing against my cheek….pure sex.